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If a man in the pulpit can’t preach without hiding behind shades, don’t ever hand him your money.
A leader who can’t look you in the eyes is already telling you the truth: he’s a red flag.
I am writing this post for anyone that might attend services with the expectation that I might be there. I will never under any circumstance attend anything at Zoe Ministries. Nor would I pay for anything including their vacation cruises.
There comes a moment in your spiritual walk when you realize that not every space you’re invited into is meant for you. Recently, that moment came for me with absolute clarity: I will never step foot in another Zoe Ministries again.
This decision isn’t born out of anger—it’s born out of alignment.
Congratulations to Bishop-Elect Joshua Jordan.
Before anything else, I want to extend sincere congratulations to Bishop-Elect Joshua Jordan. I truly believe that he and his wife will make an awesome pastoral team. Their leadership has the potential to bring refreshing vision, structure, and compassion to the ministry. And I genuinely pray they thrive in their calling.
But I cannot in good conscious ignore my truth either.
When Leadership Leaves Scars
While I honor the next generation stepping into leadership, I also cannot pretend away the past. Archbishop Jordan, his father, has done things to me that were deeply harmful—diabolical, even. Btw, I never like you when you were wearing dreadlocks. This connection was never something I desired, I always saw Bishop Jordan as a Father figure, and now I’m choosing to move forward.
Those experiences left wounds, and a spiritual heaviness that took time and prayer to process.
People often say, “Just let it go,” but healing doesn’t happen by ignoring what hurt you. It happens through honesty, separation, and choosing healthier environments.
Cultural Fit in Ministry Is Real
In the workplace, people talk about cultural fit all the time. But in ministry? It’s even more important.
A church is not just a place to worship—it’s a culture that shapes your spiritual growth, emotional well-being, and sense of belonging. And the truth is this: not every ministry aligns with every believer.
You can love God and realize that staying in a certain toxic environment no longer makes sense.
You can honor spiritual leadership as a whole and admit that the culture was never a true fit. That the ministry was very toxic.
You can respect a ministry’s mission and still understand it is not your mission.
Why I Declined the Invitation
I was invited to attend services, but I had to ask myself:
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Does this ministry align with my Christian values?
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Does this environment support my spiritual calling?
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Does my spirit feel peace here?
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Can I thrive in this culture without compromising myself?
My answers were clear—and they were “no.”
I also have a responsibly not to show up in places that may influence others to attend. I don't want people to think this is a place I would go to.
There are too many ministries doing excellent work, operating with integrity, structure, love, and accountability. Ministries where the atmosphere feels right. Ministries where the leaders shepherd, not control.
So I declined the invitation because alignment—spiritual, emotional, and cultural—is everything.
Stop Trying to Fit In With Misfits
Sometimes we try to force ourselves into places we’ve outgrown.
Sometimes we try to belong where God never intended us to stay.
Sometimes we try to fit in with people, environments, or systems that simply do not align with who we are becoming.
But there comes a time when you must ask yourself:
Does it make sense to keep trying to fit in with the misfits? The answer is no.
My Ministry Is Evolving — 2026 Will Look Different
One thing I know for sure: my ministry will emerge with a new name, a new mission, a new focus, and a new direction.
God is shifting me. He is elevating me. He is realigning me. And He is separating me from anything that cannot go where He is taking me.
I am stepping into a season of clarity, strength, and assignment.
No more confusion.
No more misalignment.
No more forcing myself into spaces that do not honor who I am or who I’m becoming.
I’m Moving Forward
I move forward with peace.
I move forward with purpose.
I move forward with a clear understanding that alignment is protection.
I pray the best for those at Zoe Ministries.
I celebrate Bishop Elect Joshua Jordan, new leadership, and the good that may come from it.
But my journey continues elsewhere—with my values intact, my spirit whole, and my calling leading the way.
I’m moving forward—stronger, wiser, and fully aligned with God’s plan for my life and ministry.
