Sometimes life will have you sitting on the edge of your bed, hands in your lap, looking up at the ceiling like:
“Now God, really? That’s what we’re doing today?”
And if you’re like me — classy, committed, with just enough drama to keep things interesting — you’ve probably found yourself laughing, wondering:
“Is this even real?”
Because listen, God absolutely has a sense of humor.
And not just "oh, haha" funny. I’m talking about belly laugh, drop your phone, don’t let your wig slide off kind of funny.
There’s a fine line between sacrifice and doing the most.
And friends, I crossed it. With a fast. For marriage. On day three.
Now before you judge me, let me paint the picture:
I wasn’t out here on a dramatic Esther fast, no food, no water, no AC. I was just genuinely seeking God — earnestly, intentionally, obediently. Praying for marriages. Believing for breakthroughs. Spirit high, stomach low.
But what had happened was…
The Scene: Me, My Aunt, and the Betrayal of My Blood Sugar
It’s day three of the fast. I’m feeling holy. A little weak, but holy.
I go visit my Aunt — a queen, truly. 80 years old, full of wisdom, joy, and Holy Ghost power. She and my uncle have served in ministry for decades, and the way she speaks about marriage makes you want to slap yourself and become the perfect wife. lol
So I’m sitting on her bed, soaking in her wisdom like a child at the feet of Yoda, taking in all the knowledge. She's telling me how she learned to be a wife and became a Proverbs 31 Woman. How she developed a marriage and built up my uncle.
I'm eating it up like cornbread in greens — all soft smiles and mmm hmm nods. But then...
The heat hits me.
Not a cute little warm flash. No ma’am.
This was a body slam of heat from the pit of what is happening?!
I thought, “Is this the glory of God or a pre-rapture malfunction?”
I tried to play it cool because she’s 80 and I didn’t want to traumatize her. So I said real calm, like I wasn’t melting internally:
“I don’t feel well.”
And I tried to walk out. I really did. But baby… I floated.
Next thing I know, I’m somewhere between heaven and hardwood floor.
I fainted.
Just laid out like a worshipper who got caught in the Spirit, except there was no usher and no modesty cloth. I was on the carpet of confusion.
The Comeback: Uncle’s Voice & the Divine Wake-Up Call
The only reason I came back to consciousness was because I heard my uncle yelling my name.
YELLING.
And nothing wakes you up faster than the sound of an old deacon with a powerful diaphragm.
I opened my eyes, dazed, like, “Where Am I?”
But here’s the wild part:
As I am waking up, I felt something shifted.
It’s hard to explain, but it felt like something spiritual clicked. Like God did a quick download while my flesh was out the way. I didn’t see angels or hear violins, but I knew something in me had been realigned.
Later that day, I came across a video of a wedding. Something in me was settled. Healed. Positioned.
God said, “It's time to start preparing and start believing. This is what you deserve”
Moral of the Story: Sometimes Breakthrough Comes with a Blackout
Look — I’m not saying go pass out to receive a word. Please eat a cracker, sis.
But I am saying, sometimes God will let your strength run out so His power can cut through your cute little control issues and get the job done.
You think you're praying for one thing, and God's like,
“Actually, I'm resetting your soul while you're out here fainting on hardwood floor.”
So yes. I fainted while fasting for marriage. But what I realized at that moment was sometimes God lets the absurd happen to teach us something real.
Maybe you’re asking for a spouse, and God laughs and says you need to learn self worth so he sends examples of what not to settle for just so you remember your standards.
Maybe you're stuck in traffic and end up hearing a sermon on the radio that wrecks your soul. Maybe the thing that falls apart is the very thing that saves you.
And after it all, God is whispering: "Now you're ready, prepare. Or better Covenant”
Don’t lose your joy waiting for everything to make sense. Learn to laugh with God, even when it feels like the joke’s on you. Because it’s not cruelty — it’s clarity. And if Sarah can laugh at 90 and still deliver a promise, baby, so can you.
So if you ever find yourself passed out while pursuing a promise…
Just know you might be waking up closer to it than you’ve ever been.